It was Friday night Oct 11th and the next morning I was to have my little girls 5th birthday party. But it was Friday night and I was ready to party myself! A very different kind of partying! You see, for the last 2 years of my 25 years I had drank booze and abused drugs. In fact that week I had been in the hospital for alcohol poisoning twice! I had tried to stop so many times but I just couldn’t! So I drank myself to a stupor and started to get ready for bed. My routine was always the same fall in bed and pass out! My husband being the best enabler a girl could have, always made sure that there was a pad on the mattress in case I could not make it to the bathroom to pee and newspapers on the floor, so if I had to puke the poison out of my body, I would not wreck the carpet! During that night, I woke up feeling so weak and sick to my stomach that I thought I was going to die! I turned on the bed side lamp and tried to get up I just could not do it! As I laid back on the pillow I could feel the vomit coming up to my throat! I leaned over and puked on the newspaper that Ken had put down for just this reason.
As I lay hovering over the paper I read the words printed in large script, DO YOU ABUSE ALCOHOL OR DRUGS? THERE IS HELP CALL INSIGHT! I felt such a need to call and prayed to make it trough the night! I promised God and myself if I made did that I would call. Well obviously I did make it and I did call. After the party the next day, I left fot rehab (before it was THE thing) I worked very hard to get straght and stay that way. Next week my little girl will be 30!!! And I will have my 25th sober birthday! It is a good thing that my husband (who I am still married to by the way) put the paper down on that page or who knows!!!!
