I met a girl halfway through my junior year in high school, who I found myself drawn to, she had a rough personal life, and tons of negative history with her family. We found ourselves dating eventually, but she ended up getting taken away by the police because she refused to go back home with her grandparents. We lost contact. Out of the blue, two years later, I get mail, addressed from her. She was was living with a new guardian. I was involved with a girl at the time and even though I was drawn to be with the girl who I had found myself back in contact with, I couldn’t just leave my current girlfriend. A few weeks go by, lost contact. Soon me and current girlfriend break up. A void is left. Two months later girl gets ahold of me again, she has a boyfriend she calls her “angel.” I feel left behind. Weeks go by she tells me she wants me and that she would leave him for me, but I couldn’t. Lesson – Grasping at a fire drawn by a chronic magnetism, is like an addiction. When you’re addicted, you lose yourself. If it never seems to work learn to accept defeat and be able to know you tried. Sometimes people like that aren’t meant to be the one you’re to be with, but to be a lesson of self-control.

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